Birthday Plans

Fucking viruses.  Sometimes the convenience of a computer just doesn't seem worth the hassle.  It's been a while since I've messed with this thing I was so frustrated with it.  Not having the computer up gave made me realize I could be doing other stuff when I'm bored.  But it knew I'd want a fix sooner or later.  They know you'll come back so they just wait, big black screen just waiting to swallow down hours of your time in a few gulps.  Yup, and where am I at this moment?  But I've got so many tools at my disposal with a computer.  Movie times, maps, porn clips, movie trailers, news, pictures of naked redheads dressed in high heels and leather skirts that go all the way - nevermind.  I missed the computer but sometimes I just wanna smash it for killing my time.
Marcel's birthday is coming up!!  It's only a little more than a week away and Lana and I still don't have anything planned.  My dad went out and got him a HUGE Encredible Hulk pinata, candy, table cloth, napkins, plates, etc.  Think he's hinting at something?  Yeah, we've been putting off making plans but I cringe at cleaning up after another birthday party.  He's turning five.  FIVE.  A monumental day, besides his birthday, has snuck up on me.  His first day of school.  When did he get old enough for school?  It seems like I was just potty training him and watching blues clues with him.  Now he's asking questions that make me pause without an answer and finding a level of independence I'm not used to.  He's always staying the night at my dad's or Lana's moms place.  Sounds selfish (becuase it is) but I miss having a sleeping baby on my chest or burping him after he ate.  There's a lot about the "baby" stage I miss.  I never thought for a second I'd understand my mom telling me, "You'll always be my baby."  I used to hate it.  I used to get really mad at her for embarrassing me and get mean.  Teenagers are such assholes.  Sometimes we grow out of it.  I think I have, I think I have, I think I have...